hihi^^ suddenly i receive so many offers 2 further my studies....now i dun even noe which 1 2 choose!!!! uncle has agree 2 support me in my studies...n mom on the other side is pulling me Australia....haizzz i dun noe where 2 go!!!! i weeks time is my exam!!!!wow i waited 4 tis so long!!!now dat it's gonna end i have mix feelings...i feel happy but at the same time sad coz i'm gonna leave my home dat i love so much!!! hmm....i dunno wat 2 say la....hahaha!!!! 1 things 4 sure n dat is dat i'm gonna miss every 1 of my frens dat i share my life wif these past 1 and a half year...coming from all kinda backgrounds...v really stood together no matter wat...n i'm so proud 2 have become frens wif u'l!!! now the time has come 4 us 2 part our own ways...juz remember dat no matter where v go next....v wil always stay frens 4ever...and hey who knows v mite meet again in the working field as doctors!!!real doctors!!!but i juzz wonder how osha will be la!!!!hahaha =) hey there's still msn....v can stay in touch no probs rite???
dun forget our party on the 22nd nov!!!!!wohooooo!!!v're gonna party like mad!!!!i'm not gonna forget 2 push all of u'l in the pool!!!!hahahaha!!!! most of all i'm gonna miss u're laughter dat brought me so much relieve whenever i felt down...especially nurun!!! n osha's face which i dun seem 2 get y i find so funny!!! blur sham....u are the best la....always come 4 class when there is no class or when class has over...i'l never forget u!!!! i'm really gonna miss u'l la!!!!!how??? haizzz but 4 now i juzz wanna wish us all a very very good luck in our exams!!!!may v all score will flying colours!!!let's be the best science students ATC ever had ok?!!!! ~GAMBATEH~~~ lastly i dedicate tis song 2 us!!! cheers!!! anyway here's the lyrics.....
" (Friends Forever)"
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in JuneI didn't know much of love But it came too soonAnd there was me and you And then we got real blue Stay at home talking on the telephone We would get so excited and we'd get so scared Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
[1] - As we go on We remember All the times weHad together And as our lives change Come Whatever We will still beFriends Forever
So if we get the big jobs And we make the big money When we look back nowWill our jokes still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break the door at the wash room?? Will little osha be a realdoctor man? Can faari find a job that won't interfere with her hair? I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbyeKeep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la:Yeah, yeah, yeahLa, la, la, la: We will still be friends forever Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? I guess I thought that this would never end And suddenly it's like we're women and men Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
i warnED u dun cry !!!!coz u'l make me cry n then evryone will cry....hahahahaha I'M SURE NURUN N OSHA WILL CRY or wait....maybe they will laugh untill cry RITE???
i juz wanna make something clear..as tis is my blog!!!!!no one can control me 2 wat i'm wrtting!!!!!
n i say dat i'm NOT AT FAULT!!!!!! 1st of all i'm not trying 2 side myself !!!! 2nd i couldn't control myself !!!! 3rd..she deserved it!!! 4th it was not a suitable time now!!! 5th Hannah is not herself now!!!!
as all my frens noe...when it's nearing exams it's better 2 keep away from hannah or juz dun piss her off coz she's a real big fire Dragon if u mess wif her....but some ppl juzz dun get it n try 2 step d angry dragon's tail!!!!i'm refering 2 ms.julie who is my granny's fren..... she is juz 1 *#*#*#*!!!!!!
bad enuff dat she comes 2 my granny's hse very weekend 4 no aparent reason.....she has 2 get on my nerves !!!!being a 50 something single lady wif no family.....maybe distubing ppl's family is her no.1 hobby!! considering dat my exam is near she should by all means noe very well dat i need the peace n quite!!!!her voice is like some monster+toad+cicak+elephant!!!!!!! being so irritating n loud i went out there n i gave her a piece of my mind!!!!well...u noe wat??after dinner she fan home as fast as she could!!!hahahahahahaha if i was a normal hannah maybe dat would not have happen.....but maybe it was juz not her luck....as she got some nice dragon fire from me=0
dat's not the end of the story....my granny 4 no apperent reason went n told my Aunty !!!! my Aunty comes n gives me some lame lecture dat was too lame dat i had 2 give t back 2 her as well...now u see wat a stressfull hannah can do???no matter who u are young or old if u step over my tail u get my fire.... she claim dat i didn't give respect 2 my granny coz i scolded dat #*#*#* infront of a guest dat so nyam was there...dat want i can't say anything 1....it's thier bad luck dat they had 2 hear all my yelling..... but the point is dat#*#*#* really had a piece of my mind n i'm glad dat i did...i juz wanna see if she comes tis weekend!!!!i'm juz waiting!!!
rite now of all things i dun need 2 get all this!!!i really broke down yesterday coz i couldn't take it!!!i noe i'm strong but let me juz ask u...how strong can 1 HUMAN BEIN be???i could not eat nor drink....soo i went n studied n studied untill i had no more mood!!!!i cried!!!!in dat moment i wondered 2 myself...was i a mean bad person???i didn't mean 2 say wat i said but it juz came out of me n had no control!!!!i know ppl say dat u should sontrol urself but let me tell u d truth...i COULDN'T!!!!!!it juzz came bashing out like water out from a waterfall.... and in all tis i juzz tot my granny would have understood me but instead she backstab me n went n told my aunty.....n b'coz of dat my aunty has 2 get some fire from me.....
as i said ppl gain respect from me, n if ur say i dun respect my granny..well i can tell u bullshit go 2 hell!!!!i think i have done my part as a granddaughter very well n the respect is between me n my granny n no 1 else!!!!so i think 4 my aunty 2 say dat i dun respect my granny is very nonsense!!!!
at the end of the day i'm gald 2 say dat the dragon has won again!!!!eryone appologize 2 me n my granny promise me dat she will not let dat #*#*#* come 2 the hse untill my exams over!!! wel....b'coz my 70 year old granny pleading i gave in n i juzz let it go.....i juzz hope dat they learned their leason n tis will never ever happen again. all in all hannah is wif smiles b'coz she noes went her GOD is wif her,.....all enemies shall perish b4 her!!!!n this is not juzz written in the bible but it's a great true story dat happen in my life...n this is dam true so if u trust GOD with all ur heart and pray evryday ...u dun have2 worry bout anyhting.....=)isn't GOD great??? ppl will drop 2 ur feet....b'coz UR GOD is 4 u...then who can be against u???? hahahahahahahahahahaha
i guess some of you would noe by now how i feel....well for those who dun...it's a really mixture of feelings....confuse, happy , exited, scared, at the same time dun know what 2 do!!!!! family ties are important as they are the only ppl who will be there for u when ur down.... sad 2 say it's not always like this in my family. my uncle, a well known banker who earns GOD knows how much a month(all i noe is big bucks ) is the most successful person in my family...well u noe coz my dad's side no need to say la........=p for me ppl gain respect from me and i'm proud 2 say dat my uncle gains respect from me highly... this is not b'coz he bought me a laptop ok!!!!it's b'coz he is one of the few ppl who made it from nothing...comin from a family who is supported by a father who is only a railway inspector.not gonna write all the history here...but 4 all i know he deserves my respect n i look up 2 him as a mentor. sometimes bein up there and evrything can really make a person really hard n straight forward....i know the feeling of bein a leader....it's not easy.... not at all.....all my life in secondary skol i have been 1...and somehow i know the feeling ....well i'm not saying bein a follower is easy but i guess i'm juz trying 2 say dat bein a leader is a hard n stressful job.now back 2 the point....my uncle has come a long way 2 where he is today...n i gotta say dat i'm proud 2 be a niece of such a high power man.
the main issue now is he wants 2 support me in evrything i do.dat mainly means my studies... ok maybe u're gonna go like wow!!!!hannah very good wat ur uncle suport u can do watever u want!!!! BUT!!!let me take u back 2 some years ago where my uncle was not the man he is today.......
during my younger years of teenage life....mom ,dad n bro had a argument wif my uncle....ok bein the youngest at dat time i was not aware of wat was happening(i'm innocent ok!!!) n until today i still dun noe wat happened dat time ...all i noe is dat b'coz of dat black event...my uncle has always been in bad terms wif us.ever since then he has never wanted 2help us in anyhting.
now dat many many moons has passed and gone......my uncle is a totally change man!!!!! God has planed our lives even b4 v where born.....n in my uncle's life....God had no plans 4 him 2 have children and so it is until today.i guess it kinda fruss also coz he being the eldest in the family....no children.....n my other uncle also no son....so dat means the daniel family name ends here.....kinda sad rite??somemore DANIEL u noe!!!!haizzzzzz ...maybe someday when i have a son i will name him DANIEL.....for sure=) comin back 2 d issue..... he plans 2 support both me n my bro in our studies....my bro....maybe due to the black black inccident has no place in his mind 2 accept the offer...maybe dat incident really gave him a big shot in his heart n ever since then has never found the courage nor the strenght to mend his broken heart....maybe dat's y he is so lost in his own world....no i'm not talking bad of my own bro....it's d fact.....my mom always tot me dat no matter how bad soemone is towards us v must never hate them...n i think dat dat is very true indeed!!!! and can say dat my bro n me have totally diff mind sets...although brought up by the same mother v totally repeal in our attitudes.... he totally doesn't want 2 depend on anyone 4 his future expect my parents dat is....which in a way is good...BUT dun u think dat when opportunity comes knocking at ur door u should at least respond 2 it n analyse it before rejecting it??it's like praying so hard when ur drowning but reject ppl who come along 2 save u coz u think u can save urself.....but in reality if u dun know how 2 swim how in the world are u gonna get out????well dat's him...i can't say anything bout him....it's his life...but some day if i'm in my uncle's suituation i will certainly help my bro despite the diffrences we have coz he is the only flash and blood i have.....BUT of coz terms n conditions do apply la...juz touch wood i dun have 2 do dat la.....=p now dat my bro is like dat.....it all comes down 2 me....me .....me.....HANNAH GAN BENG YEE!!! question:SHOULD I TAKE THE OFFER????? when GOD closers the door he opens a window so dat v can see tru n find our way...i have never live 1 day without his grace upon my life....facing so many deceases dat nearly took my life...i'm ever grateful n thankful dat i'm alive today still kicking and chasing my dream.... and so i take tis as an opportunity 2 open my door of my future...i have been looking out the window too long n now it's time dat i open the door..... the bigest question is y is my uncle doin all this all of a sudden??has he really changed n willing 2 help me full heartedly or he is playing a game n wanting something in return from me????he once told me dat he would pay 4 me 2 stay wif my grandma....well is dat the price i gotta pay???coz if dat's the price....i have no prob as my grandma is no big deal..all i have 2 do is juz be here wif her...which i'm enjoying =)juz imagine evrything done 4 u...from A-z coz got maid ma...hehehe...so i dun feel pressured at all bein here.....=p
osha said dat maybe he really realise and is willing 2 help me ......which in a way i feel is also true.....maybe la...i dunnoe!!!!!i feel dat i can take tis as a pathway n bridge dat will enable me 2 achieve wat i wanna do.....dun u think so? if i take it will it be like i'm depanding on ppl n not doin it on my own? if u were in my shoes will u take it?? if u have any advice plz leave me a comment.... it will mean alot 2 me...as i will know dat i have made the rite choice.... well if u dun know wat 2 say juz tel me should i accept or reject the offer from my uncle??
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i very stress adi!!!!!!day in day out my mind is full of bio,chem,m3 bio, chem m3!!!!!!!!!!! becareful ppl!!!now is not the rite time 2 mess wif me or even talk 2 me!!!i mite juzz reply u bio,chem,m3!!!!!!!!!or else i mite even bite u!!!!!=p juzz really tension wif all tis!!!seems like evryone is la.....not only me!!!!almost everyone i know around are havin exams!!!!! if not A-level is SPM....if not STPM if not PMR......exam fever goin around now...except 4 my UPSR students la...they would nicely sleepling rite now , while i'm awake 1:43am studying chemistry!!!! 1 thing i love bout chem is dat not matter how difficult it is....the word itself gives me motivation...chem-mis-TRY...sounds more like chem -must-try dun u think????hahaha so no matter how crazee i get now i have 2 try........ as 4 m3....i've been pushing myself really hard ...getting all the rite formulas in my head is juz not easy!!!!too many adi!!!!ADUh headache man!!!! bio is juz the best...BUT i still dun get the plants section!!!! rite now exam preparation i can say is about 60 % only .....another 40 % is on paper work paper work and nothing more than paper work......i guess dat's my life 4 now... ok i guess i gotta head back 2 my chem-must-try!!!!....
to evryone....watever exam ur taking...GOOD LUCK!!! especially 2 debbie...angeline....jason...genie...justina...cat... somemore who ??? all pinkies if i miss out ur name..... and also 2 whoever la... i dun noe who la.....arghh...wat am i saying!!!!! watever!!!! GOOD LUCK~~~~~
haven been sleeping well d pass few nites...i guess tis is only d beginning...tis is goin 2 last 4 the next 2 months..... evrytime i sleep i feel so guilty so i wake up n study untill i really cannot tahan then i sleep 4 awhile then get up agian.....rite now my backbone is pain !!!!!haizzzzz no matter wat i noe love is undr the sky......so i juzz bite my teeth n push myself tru....
puasa month has started today....it's also my fav time b'coz if i go out 2 eat evryone will be looking at me.....there was once i went 2 KFC and order to eat there,the lady ask 'makan sini'??buka puasa lambat lagi la.....she was lucky i was in a good mood or else i would have said 'wanna fight ar!!!!!u wanna see my ic is it???anyway when i open my mouth 2 say i'm not malay she instantly knew from my broken malay slang......hahhahahaha in the train or bus i will b holding my water bottle and when i drink ...all eyes wil be on me!=)
hahaha i've been waiting so long 4 tis chance 2 own a notebook!!!!
GOD has been listening 2 my prayers n has bless me great tru my uncle!!!!
i wanna shout out a big huge thanks 2 my uncle emmy who has bless me with tis notebook!!!!May God return ur kindness!!!!
as u can see it comes wif all in 1 printer and scanner as well!!!=)
it has bluetooth service so no prob 4 uploading music n photos!!!!
using windows vista....it's kinda same actually except 4 some extras la.....
oh ya....thanks 2 MR. Daniel ong who i only know tru the phone 4 making it posible 2 be delieved in 1 week instead of 8 weeks!!!i knew u sure help me wan...haha
ps:Daniel's are always great aren't they???=p
2 Mr. 3 the electrician.....i duno y ur name so funny but thanks 4 setting up d internet 4 me!!!!!!!
yesterday went 4 m3 class the whole day...after dat when 2 sg wang wif uncle gabby n cousins coz my granny wanted 2 buy a hp 4 him as a graduation gift....i told them not 2 go there coz i kena tipu b4 buying a hp but my uncle insisted dat he wanted 2 go there.... i knew dat he was goin 2 be disspointed at the end but i tot 2 myself ppl learn fron their own mistakes so off i went shopping while they when hunting 4 the phone....
here's the story......
after doin my shopping i came back 2 the place where they oledi decided on the model n was paying 4 it.....the guy said dat he wanted 2 put some songs into the memory card n my uncle juzz left the phone there n we went 2 buy some drinks....after buying some drinks my uncle stop by another shop 2 ask bout the same model .....ok ppl who know bout hp's will noe dat there is 2 kinds of model 1 is the original n the other is the AP set dat is local made....my uncle's ori model cos bout rm999 while the AP set cos bout rm750....then the guy said dat the AP model will coz alot of probelm later....my uncle was shock!!!but it was too late as he had payed the money on the other side.....i dun mean 2 be bad or anything la....but i was kinda happy...i told them dat sg wang was not a good place 2 buy hp's!!!!so v rush back 2 where my uncle bought the hp and ask 2 change 2 ori model....obviously the guy didn'y allow la...givin all kinds of sales talk 2 my uncle .my uncle insisted dat he wanted 2 change but they insisted CANNOT!!!!i didn't bother 2 hear cs i knew it was all a lie la wat d guy said....after some point...they started 2 pick up an argument n was speaking in a high tone....okzzzz at tis point i simply slip away n when 2 see some shoes on the opposite side=) hahaha.... at last my uncle didn't get wat he wanted n had 2 stick 2 d AP set.....dat's y la i say ppl who dun listen 2 experience ppl will always regrate!!!!=p feeling so disppointed they walk back 2 the car .......but someone was all smlies as she knew she was rite n dat they regrated dat they didn't listen 2 her=))
in the car i got a very shocking call from ALVIN!!!!!i never expected him 2 call me.....he was very concern bout me n my studies n gave me a very motivational advice,,,i feel so gratefull 2 have him in my life.....but i feel sorry coz there's nothing i can give him back in return...i juzz hope n pray dat GOD will bless him back as he has been a blessing 2 me...=) thank you 4 bein there 4 me=)
so at the end of the day uncle went home with no smiles while Hannah went home with lots of smiles!!!!hehehehe ok i dun mean 2 be bad la....juz hope dat his hp doesn't give him prob ok..... malu aje a lawyer kena tipu by uneducated ppl....tis shows dat no matter how educated u are...it all comes down 2 whether u use ur brains n think b4 u act!like my uncle he should have ask as many counters as posible and listen 2 ppl's experience b4 he bought his hp......
well dat's the story ...... ok let me end wif this song...it's very meaningfull!! listen 2 d lyrics!! dedicated 2 all my love ones especially my mom!!muakssss!!!! *to my mom if ur reading tis: pls pause the song and the end of tis page then only click play 4 tis song if not u will hearing 2 songs together!! ENJOY!!
the pic wif the lady is actually a fountain...diff pics come out evrytime....dat was kinda nice......
i went there some weeks ago but didn't have the time 2 upload the pics...so here it is......it was kinda nice actually,all together it went 6 rounds ....the best part is when it is at the peak and it stops 4 awhile...u kinda feel like on top of the world=)the pics are kinda blur coz camera no battery so had 2 use my hp.....haizzz...
mommy has left 4 australia....i feel like bursting but i control myself and i noe dat after tis i'l be able 2 see my mommy again.... i'm curently staying wif my granny n i'l come back once in awhile 2 check on my blog....but soon my laptop will be comin over so i'l have no worries in updating my blog..... juzz wanna say dat i'm trying 2 cope with all dat is happening and i hope dat everything will work out juz fine....
hi there, i guess i'm juzz gonna continue from my old blog.... yeah, mommmy is gonna leave in 4 days....my journey as single person leaving on her own is gonna start...well ya maybe i'l still have my frens n family...but it's juz not gonna be d same without my mom around...... my bestfren my mom...dat's her....my frens actually envy me dat i have such a supporting mom n i'm actually very proud of dat!!!now dat v're gonna separate,i'm gonna miss her deeply!!!! i actually plan 2 buy her a necklace dat will have our pics...u noe dat kind dat can put pics 1....ya..but i dunno where i can buy it la....gotta go n find it..... when she's over there n i'm over here....v're be in each other's heart 4ever!!!! ok dat's dat.... next exams.... so far so good la....i manage 2 cover alt 4 m3 n i've started my organic chem at last!!!!haha ya coz i always tel myself 2 start but always keep avoiding it...haizzz now finally started feel so relief!!!
oh ya...happy merdeka ppl!!!!!! haha terlupa pulak..... considering dat Daniel was goin 2 JB 2 celebrate so i went 4 the countdown at dataran merdeka coz i didn't wanna tired myself from all d travel n all..... i went there wif Rach n mom ...... 1st v when 2 klcc but was told dat d countdown was only in dataran merdeka so v pusing n headed 2 dataran merdeaka...it was very jam coz evryone was rushing 2 dataran merdeka as it was oledi 11 somethig at dat time.... finally v reach there got a good spot far but clear la.....waited n waited finally it struck 12 n nothing happend!!!!! v were so dissapointed !!!! they sang negaraku n blah blah blah BADAWI came gave his speech then only the fireworks came out...by dat time it was oledi 1 something, v were so tired n the wireworks were not so fantastic compared 2 new year countdown..... welll yup dat was my merdeka celebration nothing 2 shout about la....:( no daniel no shyiok ma!!!!hahahaha i woke up juz in time 2 see the ending of the merdeka parade on tv....it was around 10am on merdeka day...after the parade show there was some call in contest in 8tv so i decided 2 join la...n yes yes my luck is still good...i manage 2 get tru n i won the limit I LOVE MALAYSIA t-shirt...hahahaha....i had 2 answer a question of coz ...the quest was wat is the meaning of the blue colour in the jalur gemilang...well 4 those who dun noe it represents unity .....(perpaduan u noe):p
okzzz i'l need some time 2 transfer all my pics here hopefully it'l be all up by next week... til then ~chioazz~
