ok...life after EXAMS... it's been HELL!!!!! i'm not gonna talk bout the hell i've been tru ...i feel like running up a mountain and sceaming my lungs out!!!!! there is a change goin on in my life...and i don't know how to deal with it!!!i tot i was smart enuff or strong enuff to handle it...but looks like i'm NOT!!! why is it that i can't have a normal life????WHY!!!!!! everyone can go 2 college and uni and finish studying and work and live happily ever after...but me?!!!!i have to go tru all this shit !!!!!WHY!!!!!!!i noe life is unfair but y is it double unfair 4 me???
i'm not happy staying here..i don't want to stay here!!!!but where do i go???arghhhh!!!i dun want 2 be so mad over things...but sometimes things juzz get so crazee i dun noe how not to become angry!!!
i hope and pray that i can juzz get out of this place once and for all!!!someone taking me away!!!!!plzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!...i want to live my own life!!!! my life!!!miracles happen????yes they do....i'm waiting for my miracle....
oh well...i don't want 2 talk bout sad things.... tomoro i'm goin to do my hair!!!!!yes yes !!!!!wohoooooo i want to do happy things and make myself happy!!!! life is too short to be sad and angry hor!!!! 9/12 -DFC anniversary!!!!!!another happy day!!!! DANIEL i miss you sooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!you are the only 1 who makes me happiiii!!!!^^and pinkies toooo!!!^^
omg!!!!wat did i do!!!!! my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! dammm it!!! sorry ppl...will fix it n tell u'l all bout my whacky life after exam!!!! so sorry...will be back ASAP!!!
help me!!!!i'm goin nuts!!!! it's the feelin of bein so close but yet it's not over!!!!haizzzz when u wan time 2 go faster it won't...but when u wan it 2 stop it fliesssssssss!!!!sudahlah!!!
i dammm poookaiiiiiii!!!! i want 2 get a job....partime....anyone???? dunno wat 2 do also???mid valley???klcc???i pun tak tahu.... mom ask me 2 teach tuition again....can is can...but ada students ka???now holidays u noe... i think it's good money also lor....RM60/hour.....and then given my knowledge away also good wat rite????rather then standing in some mall doin promoter....pandang pikabooo aje...gain nothing...kaki sakit!!!!
y is it dat i have no patience???it seems like evry lil thing ppl do or say wrong gets me all work up!!!at times i feel like i'm such a bad person ....i dun expect things 2 be perfect of cozzz ...juzz wan them 2 go my way!!!very selfish hor yeah i noe...but wat to do????dat's me lar....u can't change means can't !!!! i dun plan 2 change also....it's not 2 say very nice 2 be the good person also...i will kena back from ppl....so it's better 2 be the way i am...=) then again...some ppl very kecil hati ....say abit pun terasa!!!how?????tis kinda ppl how 2 deal??? they say becoming a doctor must have patience ritE???from wat i see in the ER series la...lol but dat 1 is movie ...i dunno wat happens in the real world....o.o
i want 2 go penang!!!!!!!yes i noe u heard tis a lot of times ...but yes!!!!i wanna go penang!!!!! i dunno y????so many other choices out there...somehow i still wan penang!!!!how???? =_=
i want 2 change my blog skin....no time....wait lar.... i want 2 do my hair!!!!!words can't discribe my freaking hair rite now!!!!! any1 wans a partime witch????i can be !!!!!my hair suits the job perfectly!!!^_^ aiyoyoyo i want tis i want dat...dunno wat I WAN lar!!!!!HANNAH GAN BENG YEE!!!!! >_<
14/11,wednesday.... haizz it was my chem P4..9:30am paper start....i knew mr.kopi will be late so i told him 2 be there at 7:40....but it was so super jam...so he came bout 8:10am.... evrything was ok UNTIL after the toll!!!i dunno wat happen la...no accident also...the cars were juzz not MOVING!!!!!!it was oredi 9:15am!!!!!swt!!!!!so v decided 2 park at some open space carpark .....then ran to the monorail and reach coll at 9:29am!!!!!!!i tell u my heart almost brust out of my body...i was so freaking!!!!as soon as v took our place mr.ruben said START!!!!phewwww my heart was beating so fast at dat time....!!!!
dat was not it....the paper was super duper HARD!!!!i dunno y tis time v had 10 questions instead of 9....haizzz i manage 2 finish rite on the dot!!!!many of them never even finish the paper...seriously tis is the hardest paper!!!!i never recheck also...i wanna cry!!!!!
oh well...4 more days of nitemare!!!!!woohoooo can't wait can't wait!!!!!next week at tis moment i would be FREEE~!!!!!! my cousins oredi booked me at 3:30 on wednesday!!!!after my exam we're gonnna jump into the pool!!!!!hohoho!!!! 22nd- is the farewell party....haizzz sobs sobs....we plan 2 go BTS but dunno la...see how 1st...hmmm after dat.... 23rd- godsis date!!!!wohoooo i miss her so muchy!!!! 24th-watch movie at mv wif cousins 25th- sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppp!!! 26th-do my passport 27th-i dunno justina wanna go 1U or not....??? 28th-still free... wanna booked????hahaha juz kidding
dec... 2nd dec-MOMMY COMIN BACK!!!!!!! 6th-mommy goin back to aussie...sobs sobs
well so far..like dat only...haha i wanna go 4 a holiday la...where 2 go ar????
today i tulis dua post....banyak hal wanna cerita...=)
ok my letter 2 geoff is done... now the Hp story ...yeah got story 1....very funny and werid o.o ^^
i woke up today having in mind dat i have 2 go n see the phone price and e-mail 2 mom...so i got up at 10:30am....tis is very early 4 me adi ok!!!!!i slept at 4:30am tis morning!!!!! then drove 2 mid valley my dear 2nd home....=) on the way i get a call from mom saying dat they wanna send the money 4 the phone!!!!!i was like wth!!!!i havent see the price also!!!!! haizzz so nvm lar...i went 2 see the phone 1st..... i decided 2 go to the 1 shop near carefour there...dat fellow 1st thing see my phone....he said:'wa u know lee ji han ar'???instead of telling me how much he taking the phone 4...=)coz my wallpaper is me n daniel at his b'day bash.=p...so funny man the way he said it like so surprise !!!so i said haha yeah my idol ma..... then he said :ok i take RM230.... hoho very good price adi lor...i didn't tell him bout how 'sot' my phone is...hahaha so i said: ok,after minus my phone how much is the new phone...?? he said: tok tok tok the calculator.....i give u RM 1050 i said: walau...still so expensive ar....i student leh.give me RM 1ooo k??i pay cash!! he said: cannot...(typical salesman talk)tis 1 is limited edition u noe....limited stock(coz it's the pink 1 ) i said:ya meh...no lar...same wat....give me RM 1000 lar...... he said:cannot ler,....tis is original set...not AP... i said: yes meh how 2 see????(i also bein kinda stupid lar)
he show me the back part of the phone...n it's really diff man..my old phone was AP model(not ori)...but i was still not very sure....so i said: ok let me go take money 1st.... he said:okok i keep 4 u...only 4 2 hours ar....after dat ppl come and buy i sell!!! i said:okok i will come back....
ooooooo .....in my heart..yea yea how many ppl crazee 4 pink like me....haizzz salesman talk....=p i still 'bu kan yen' the price and him saying it was ori model...so i went 2 Sony powerstation...which is on the 1st floor...dat's the main sony center la...all sony stuff....from laptop 2 hp....i ask the price there RM 1290...and i check the back part juzz like he showed me...and i see all the same....the sticker and colour is there...so check!!!!it's ori!!!! and the ppl there dun take trade in.....haizzz so i went 2 another hp center on 2nd floor....wooooooootttttt dat place only take my phone 4 RM 100!!!!!!!!!!
so i made up my mind 2 go 4 the 1st hp shop lar of cozzz.. ok seeing n comparing done!!!now 2 get the $$$$$$
mid valley DUN have western union(the place where i get the $$$ from australia) usually i do it at the post office...but mid valley post office dun have....haizzzzz so i went 2 bangsar post office.... at bangsar..... shit i forgot 2 photoshat ic for the western union!!!!!so i pergi cari photostat shop lor....round n round cannot find....at last went 2 7-eleven...fuiiii they have!!!!!=) went back to post office lucky the line not long....so i took the $$$$..settle!!!
back at mid valley....(2nd time comin in ...means i payed 2 times parking fees...haizzz lucky today is weekday only RM 1!!!)
back at the 1st hp shop.... the same guy....
he said:oh very sorry u too late...i sold it adi.... i said:yeah rite lar... he said:hahaha okok so confirm???? i said:yeah confirm...can u transfer my files... he said:oh all the lee ji han songs is it???? i said:lol yea yeah all daniel's songs and few other songs also... he said:okok=) i said:=) then he ask me to fill up the waranty card... me:(writting my name...) he:oh u are a chinese????????o.ou noe how 2 speak chinese?? me:yup of coz......(same old story lar....father chinese mother indian...blah blah blah) he:oh...icic me :if not how u think i can listen 2 lee ji han songs are??? he:hahahahahaha
after dat i ask him 2 transfer all my files into the new hp.... he:okok i want macdee.... me:wooot!!! he:yeah lor...i help u ..u must belanja me... me:yeah rite....dat's ur job....=p he:hahahahahaha
haizzz damm funny fellaa....evry lil thing ask me 4 macdee....lol after awhile..... he:so u got lee ji han num or not??? me:yea i wish lar..... he:oh i tot ur good fren?? me:hahaha i lagi wish lar!!!!! he:hahahhahhaa
after he transfer evrything 4 me....i said ok...let me pay u lar he:yea hor u not yet pay... me:alamak u forgot ar...then i should have juzz take the phone n cabut...hahah he:hahahahahahaha
almost all the time laughing....so say leh..weird and funny rite??? haizz haizz so dat was the prettypink hp story.... all in all i like tis phone very much!!!!=) shake shake and the music will change!!!!=) at most of all it's PINK!!!!!!=)
brand new phone...same old me...=p camera good or not u judge 4 urself lar...4 me it's pretty good=)
ok i dunno where 2 start...ermmmmm.....
erhemmmmmm*clear my troat*
geoff,
THANK YOU geoff!!!!!!or brumby???lol i dunno what shall i call u...wait la...let me think bout it 1st ok????=P tis year will be a rather different christmas 4 me....haha NO 1:i got a new prettypink HP from my stepfather 2 be... NO 2:i'm gonna spend christmas without my MOM!!!!!!*tears falling down* and lastly my A-levels is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
well geoffrey...i'm sorry if my point of view towards you was kinda rough but i wanna let u know dat i will get over it....juzz give me some time ....2 be honest....i'm very thankful dat my mom has finally found someone like u.....no serious....she has been non stop talking all highs bout u....i have never seen her so happy in my life...=)*tears falling down* i always wanted the best for my mom...coz she's the world 2 me... n now i'm very happy daT GOd has answered my prayers !!!!!!
you are a blessing 2 my both my mom and me.....n i can't thank you enuff for taking my mom's nonsense...=) i guess it also brings u'l closer together rite??
hahahahahahahaha u noe wat...i dunno wat 2 say adi.....i'm so sorry geoffrey...i'm really not a emotional person.i now how 2 talk only...writiing all..hmmmm ..so i dunno how 2 write wat i fell also...hohohohoho it's a mistery side of me...u will learn more bout me once u get 2 noe me....=) and later u will noe wat i feel without me saying....coz my expression shows it all.....u see ar....me n my mom...2 dragons...but from diff planets....i'm the earth dragon while she's the ...haha wat dragon???.....oh yeahhhhh LOST DRAGON!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha N i heard u also dragon????????wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha so let me tell u lar....this lost dragon needs REAL dragons like us 2 survice.....if not ar...she will be LOST!!!!!hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
okok enuff lar.... i really dunno wat 2 write adi...... thank you!!thank you!!!!thank you!!!!! x100 the best christmas present i have ever gotten !!!!!! p/s: u guys said dat u'l wanted my blessing 2 get married??? all i can say is dat if my mom is happy....dat's my blessing...!!!
sekian terima kasih.=p
oh yeah ...if u'l are wondering wat hp i got....YUP it's the pink 1 i show b4 in the ealier post...=) prettypink W580i se.!!!=)
wohoo !!!!4 more days of exams!!!!!!also my last 4 days at ATC.....hahaha sobs sobs????NO WAY!!!!!i can't wait!!!!!never liked tis place never will!!!!i'm juzz thankful dat i could finish my A-levels here dat's all.....=)
i have been havin bad luck these few days!!!!!ishhhh ishhh choi choi GO AWAAY!!!!!! wednesday went 4 bio paper using LRT ...SO CHOI the LRT stop at every station 20 mins or maybe longer i dunno...and it was oredi 1pm..exam at 1:30pm....so i had 2 take a taxi which cost me RM7.woot!!! today...i burn my fingers while pouring hot water into my cup 2 make green tea!!!!awhhhh!!!!pain u noe....i put dat ubat gigi...wat u call it....oh yeah colgate!!!my goddness getting blur somemore!!!!wat is happening 2 me?????shit!!!!
today nite wang lee hom will be at sg wang 4 autograpgh session....i wanna go!!!!BUT must control myself lar....i noe i will get gila there...so better not go...i want my studying info 2 be in my head until 21st.wohooo maybe i'l go 2 singapore 4 the his consert wif my dear Daniel!!!!=) so ngam they are having the promo together=) i bought his album today...i tell u ..really worth it lar!!!!got dvd of the mvs lagi!!!!i'm so hook on this 'gai bian zi ji' song now=) after seeing the mv somemore hook!!!wahahahaha his group is juz superb !!!!the guys in his team so cool=)he is even ~~~~~haha no words!!!!on cloud 9=P haizzz 4 more at ATC!!!!so so finally!!!!i'l tel u how i feel later..now wanna go mimpi of wang lee hom~~~~~ anyway tis is the mv....enjoy=)))
b4 i start my worst day post...tis is wat i have in mind 2 buy....=)
ok now let mt start,today is the worst day of 2007!!!!!!! it started off pretty well but towards the end it juzz got worst n worst!!!!!=(
1. went home cozz bro ask me 2 take shino out cozz the ppl wanted 2 come 2 fix the toilet....ended up they never came n i ended up goin there 4 nothing!!!!!=(
2.went 2 mid valley coz bro ask me pay the electricity and gas bill...but couldn't pay the gas bill 4 dunno wat reason!!!!!=(
3.came back home,v realise dat the side door of our car had tis nasty 'pink' stain with calar here and there!!!!WTH!!!I'M TOTALLY FREAK OUT MAN!!!!!!tis is totally freaky!!!who the hell did tis!!!!!!and y must it be pink!!!!i was the 1 driving somemore...if i langgar or hit anywhere i couldn't have felt it.....but tis is juzz so crazzeeeee!!!!!Grandma is totally freak...complain of high blood pressure n went 2 sleep =o...tomoro mr.sim is comin 2 take it 2 the workshop...=(
4.juzz when u think it's get's better , it get's worst!!!!!my hp is totally 'sot'!!!!!!i can't hear wat ppl are saying n it cut's off like nobody's business!!!!!DAMMMM!!!!!=*(
5.AND NOW SOME IDIOT IS BANGING ON THE FLOOR UPSTAIRS WHICH IS SO ANNOYING!!!!!!!STUP UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6.NEXT I'VE GOTTA FINSIH MY BIO PAPER 1..BUT I DUN HAVE THE MARKING SCHEME!!!!
how many more bad things can happen to me in a few more hours of the day????!!!!gaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!crap!!!!can't i juzzz have a normal life 4 once!!!!!i know dat life isn't a bed of roses but all tis is juzz too much!!!at least wait 2 more weeks la...i dun need tis now !!!!!!i want my mommy!!!!!!!waaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!sobs sobs!!!!!!! trying 2 make myself feel better by listening 2 tis song~~~~~*wipe tears*=(
aiyo..stayed at home 4 2 days in a row!!!!!sien man!!!!i Want S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G!!!!! now it's really getting into me!!!!i really can't wait 2 finish exams!!!
i sleep at 4am...get up at 12pm...half the day is gone...jump here jump there oredi 2:30pm...start studying untill nitezzzz...stop...online ...chat chat yikeediyak...oredi 12am .the next day.....study again untill 4am again...then tidur......zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Phew!!!wat a life man!!!!=0
i've gotta do my uni application thingy also cannot...i think i'l juzz wait untill 21nov la...=( too bad too sad la!!! bro came today 2 give me the money 2 do my passport...i knew he wants something in return 1...he ask me 2 go back home on monday 2 take shino out...cozz the ppl comin 2 do the toilet thingy dunno wat la....haizzzz...nvm la...anything 4 baby shino=)
tomoro is another day....like dat la.....oh yeah..i'm searching 4 a new hair style...i dunno which 1 sesuai 4 my tis head ??...i'm thinking of not goin back 2 lily 2 cut...cozz all she does is snip snip here n there...straighthen the roots and charge me!!!i think i wanna go somewhere else...but where huh?????huhuhu!!!
i finally finish bio AS level....waaaaaa!!!really la!!!Chem paper 4 is next!!!!tis is really the climax!!!i've never studied so much like in tis b4!!!!
21 november 2007...ATC....level 3.....some room la....2:30pm....can't wait!!!!!can't wait!!!!!!!! let the countdown begin!!!!! 17 days.....n counting!!!!!
i need a new handphone!!!!shit!!!tis 1 is givin me so much problem!!!suddenly off by itself!suddenly cannot hear walkman!!!so annoying!!!
yesterday i went 2 check the price of sony ericson w580...RM1000 !!!!=0 my phone they only makan RM200!!!=( yeah la considering the bad condition...haizz minus dat the phone will be RM 800!!! i better get the money from my mom before my phone value becomes kosong!!!
coming to my mom,i got a problem wif dat Mr.GEOGRAFI!!!not only i dun understand a word he mumbles but he smokes!!!!i always had problem wif ppl smoking!!!!yeah my mom talks all good bout him all the time which makes it even more annoying!!!i want him 2 show me dat he is serious and not juzz my mom talking!!!yeah he will treat her damm good and blah blah blah but i want him to show me dat he is serious bout tis family,coz no way am i juzz gonna let him take my mom away juzz like dat!!!so far he has not proved himself 2 me!!!yeah he may be paying the rent la phone bill la,...but dat is all 2 satisfy my mom!!!he has prove nothing 2 me!!!ppl dun understand tis...i guess i am a very diff ...ppl say dat dat is my mom's life and if it makes her happy then its ok!BUT it's not 4 me!!! maybe it's becozz i've come such a long way wif my mom...and i dun want her 2 make tis decision juzz becozz he is treating her well!!!i saw her tru 2 failures...i dun wan 2 see her tru another 1!!!!! i'm not saying dat i dun approve them 2 be together ...but all i want is 4 him 2 prove 2 me dat he is 4 real!!!! not juzz 2 my mom BUT 2 me!!!!yeah call me selfish !!i dun care!!!it's juzz the way i am!!!u can't change me!!!if he want's my mom , he has 2 want me too!!
so well, i'm gonna give him time, but my clock is thicking....min by min... day by day.....if he is really serious he should ACT NOW!!!!
p/s:YES I AM A SELFISH !!!YOU CHOOSE 2 COME INTO OUR LIVES U PROVE IT!!!NOTHING COMES EASY IN TIS WORLD!!!IT'S A BAD BAD WORLD ANYWAY!!!U CAN'T SURVICE A 19 YEAR OLD GURL???U DUN FIT 2 BE PART OF MY LIFE!!!!i'M SORRY IF U STAY IN A LAYBACK WORLD ,BUT I LIVE IN THE REAL WORLD!!! I DO IT MY WAY!!!TRY STOP A FIRE DRAGON!!!I WANNA SEE!!!DUN PLAY PLAY!!!LA LO LI MEH!!!DAT'S THE WAY I TALK !!!
lol i'm not bein a bad gurl am i??no no!!!i'm a ANGEL!!!!=)i'm juzz bein Hannah Gan Beng Yee...sorry if i offended anyone...it's my blog i write wat ever i want!!and tis is really from my heart!!!!
~so peace~ smile=) have a good day!! ermm...DANIEL ROCKS!!!=p oh yeah..did i mention i need a phone??? i need a phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wohooo!!!today is the 1st of nov!!!!!!! 7 more papers 2 go~~~~ october pass by juzz like dat ...2 be honest i never felt the month of october....the last time i remeber doin something is in Aug....after dat i lost count of the time, date, and months....!!!really freaking huh??!!!0.o
mr.kopi was early today...so the jam was not so bad..n i actually got a nice spot rite in front of coll,dat means no need to pay=)save me RM 5...GOOD!!! after m3 i went 2 mid valley 2 tenang fikiran...bought myself a pair of pants..RM 79.90... gosh i save RM 5 but spent RM 80 ...wat kinda money planning is dat???=0
came home straight pengsan on the bed...so freaking tired man!!!i slept at 4am n woke up at 7am 2 go 4 exam...so u can imagine my eyes muscles are like so weak...=( slept for 2 hours only...woke up at 6:30pm..then started my bio.....now i'm so tired again..but then still got so much 2 finish!!!!waaaaaaa!!!!feel like goin 2 sleep but then feel so guilty ...i wanna finish 1st...so end up i'm here blogging...haizzz ok la gotta go back 2 my apoplast and symplast pathway....adhesion force...transpiration ,...translocation...xylem ...phloem....ARHGGG!!!plants>>>i juzz hate you!!!but u carry so many marks...grhhhhh!!! la la dah dah dum dum.....
sorry tis post is juzz so silly...thanks for reading it anyway...=)
