well , right now honestly life seems a little blurry and I'm not quite sure if it's the fact that I'm leaving in 2 weeks or that I haven't cleared certain issues I need to clear.

the past 8 months has been a very emotional and deep journey.
Besides the fact that I actually survived 8 months of "NOTHING-NESS" I'm actually quite content with how everything turn out.

I'm finally starting this very much anticipated chapter of my life.

here I would like to take the opportunity to share about a true dear dear friend of mine who helped me tremendously in surviving the past 8 months.( I'm not mentioning names....I think it's pretty obvious if you really know me well)


of coz not to forget mummy and and a few close friends who were always there for me.( again, you guys know who you are)=)
I am truly blessed to have you awesome people in my life and no matter where I go I will always remember and cherish the friendship we have.

But honestly emotionally , I really owe this special person whom without, I guess I would have had a nervous breakdown .
dead serious.

I still remember the first day at Taylors , not knowing a soul and out of no where you burst through the door with such high energy shouting" OH another new student!!" YES this was your exact words!=_=

"Hi, I'm XXXXX" =)* with the sweetest smile * probably the best feature in you...haha!

my 1st thought was "is this person nuts??? how can anyone be so energetic at 8am"
and ehemmm I really did wonder if you were insane=p

but yes It was the most Welcoming greeting ever!

*I would never in a million years great someone like that*hahaha

and I'm not sure if you fellow PM 17-ians realize that this person NEVER fails to greet you good morning or HI with a smile before handing you notes in the morning.

It's not like I wanted to "purposely" realize you at that time....but I find it kinda amusing.....hehehe
actually I still find you amusing ....don't worry;)

then came a time when I couldn't care less about how sweet your smile coz I really found you irritating and annoying!
I never wanted to sit in front of you coz my hair seem more interesting to you than Ms Chan's lecture....

for does who study with me, you would know how I am when I'm in " studying mode" .

*for does who don't, too bad...you'll never see the nerd in HANNAH GAN BENG YEE=P

so anyway, Just imagine this person disturbing your hair behind you when your trying to understand a chinese educated Chemistry lecturer mumbling away in front, ANNOYING WEI!!=P
lol but I still love Ms.Chan! sweet lady besides her teaching =)

somehow you always get all your Chemistry QA's ...
I was damm jealous!
how can someone who looks like they are playing with chemicals get the right answer while I carefully test each solution but still the answer remains a mystery to me.>.<

I have never really told you this but yes I HATED you !=P

constant invites to ICE-SKATE when all I cared about was about finals!
1 rejected invite leads to another and another and ANOTHER!

how can anyone not get the msg that I'M NOT INTERESTED !
Do I look like I want to go ice-skating when Finals are in like 3 months...?
finally you stop inviting and I was in peace=D
hohoho

but I was glad the invite was still valid after A2 finals=)
and because of that I can at least skate 1 round without holding on to the side bars=)

now I wonder why didn't you take me bicycle riding??
I would have been able to overcome that ridiculously embarrassing side of me=_=

I cannot believe how far we have come.

late nights at mamak
swimming till 9pm
sushi
shopping
GYM
and most of all the amount of laughter and tears I shared with you.
no one has ever cracked me up the way you do~

thinking of it honestly brings tears to my eyes.
*tears of joy *

I never would have had imagine I would share something so extra ordinary with someone I actually found irritating , annoying and despite all this while.

and the sleepless nights you spend consoling me , if there was 1 person besides my mum who have seen the worst of me it would be you.

*not to mention the horny torture you get from me every month!=p

I know that you don't believe in God but in every way I do believe that God brought you into my life for a purpose and I am grateful in every way for that.

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this is the part that I have yet to sort out.


in every way I thank you for being there for me and making my world a better place.
I never would have admitted that anyone would change me for the better or for the worst but you have proved me so damm wrong .

I would have never thought of a better way to spend my 8 months of nothing-ness.
you selflessly have been there for me and I'm not just saying this, but I really mean it and I will forever be grateful for what we have.

I would be lying if I said I wouldn't miss you and I would never want to hate you instead.
you will always have a special place in my heart .

forever and always.

till we HOPEFULLY continue our special bond next year.


XOXO

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